Wednesday, December 31, 2008
2009. A Year of Journey. ♥
2008 ended at the struck of 12 midnight. and just like that, the year we once lived through became yesterday and history.
Now we face another year of life. another year to keep on dreaming. and another year to keep on believing.
surely, a LOT happened during 2008. some, i definitely want to remember. and some, i just wish to delete from my memory. these memoirs of yesterday will serve as morals. to face 2009, not by being experienced, but by having better knowledge of how things may come and go.
listening to the Year-End message. i knew in my spirit that crossing the threshold of 2009 will be a promised year of Journey with God. bearing these out through the unexpected signs He gave me.
His Word made me Dream more. Desire more. Believe more BEYOND the world i'm in with such a deep reassurance. the days of 2009 may still be unknown. but i know He'll be right there with me as i step in to the days time and season has yet to bring.
sure-fire. no doubt. i'll face 2009 with Him and an expecting Heart. there may still be times of such that i wouldn't want to happen but are unavoidable like. . humiliation. but i won't let that hinder me. for better days are yet to come. (^@^)v
Sunday, December 28, 2008
work. x_x
ok so, i've been working at McDonald's for a week now and it hasn't been any fun for me.
i don't know why but i just really can't do anything right. yesterday, i only worked for an hour 'cause two of the managers sent me home. but before that, i had to make an incident report about not being able to include butter for some customer's pancakes. also, about missing an additional order of that stupid sausage mcmuffin w/ egg. i almost had it right. well, at least i think i did. i even double-checked the orders to make sure they were all in the bag already. but i guess, i'm just that stupid.
every morning of that week, i would wake up wondering what would happen the moment i get behind that counter.
sometimes, i'd be like "i'm getting the hang of this." and just as i'm about to feel like i'm enjoying myself, i'd end up doing something wrong.
greet loudly, SMILE big, move fast --only some of the reminders i would always get from the managers, even from the other crew people. --it's not like, i don't do them. I DO!! i really do. i just don't get it why it's still not enough.
i've already thought of quitting for like, i don't know, a hundred times already? but there's this voice that would always tell me "show them what you've got, don't quit, don't give up. I'm right here." i've got this strong feeling that, that's Jesus talking to me. 'cause whenever i'd hear that voice, i'd be all confident and "ok, i won't quit." stuff like that.
also, knowing how sensitive and fragile my feelings are. i would've cried everytime the managers would say i'm "tanga" or "bobo". but i'm surprisedbut i'm surprised i'm ok about it everytime they do. and again, the only reason i could really think of is Jesus. Him living inside me. also, learning how getting offended would be the end of your blessing.
i know, believe and feel that He's been helping me through out all this. but i still don't know why things aren't going well for me at work.
but going to Church yesterday. . getting off the shuttle, i told myself. . "pag ung message ngaun tungkol sa don't give up something like that, ewan co nalang. *sigh*".
as soon as Pastor Paul started preaching. the urging phrase of "don't quit and don't give up." wasn't mentioned until he got to the middle of the message. hearing those words echo through Pastor Paul's lapel, to my ear drums sending sound wave messages to my brain, BAMM!! it hit me. i stopped for a second making sure i heard right.
and yepp, right then and there i knew God doesn't want me to quit.
i don't want to, but second thoughts would always butt in whenever i get councelled about my poor performance as a counter person.
but as what Pastor Paul said. get our BUT's out of the way and just trust God.
and that's what i'm gonna do. just continue trusting my Daddy no matter what happens. if i fail, i won't let that stop me. i'm gonna continue pressing on.
AJA~!
FIGHTING~! @_@