Friday, July 10, 2009
surrender.
ok so, i finally finished watching "Witch YooHee", and i guess that'll be it for now. i'll be surrendering this part of my life to Daddy.
just like what i did with the Asian music fandom.
i believe that Daddy has been calling me to put those aside for a while and just spend some time with Him. i admit that, i am kind of missing doing those stuff [fangirling], but i know very well myself that now's NOT the time. i'm really thinking, TIME PLAN. i need to prioritize everything. i need to set what and who needs to be first in my life. i've mentioned in one of my past blogs that i once realized that i've been living quite an unorganized life. and lately i've been realizing it even more. specially now that i finally have my own copy of Choo Thomas' book "Heaven Is So Real!".
i finally got to buy it last saturday after ate Mimi's babyshower.
i am now in chapter 8.
what's the connection you ask. well, i'm not too sure myself.
but i can sense that this book really has something to do with me.
there's this deep kind of connection and i really feel quite attached to it.
and my dreams. . literal dreams, as in the ones you have when you sleep.
they kind of caught up with the story. 'cause i'm not too sure, since Daddy knows when. . but i keep having these strange dreams. well, they weren't really strange until i realized what they all have in common. before, i just thought that they were merely the kind of dreams you normally have.
but as i kept on having them like, every other night. the more i realized that they all have the same kind of occurence. only, each with a different kind of setting. and so, as i get to read more of the book the more i get that feeling of urgency. like there's really no time left to drag around.
everything's happening so fast.
and truly the 2nd coming of the King is just around the corner.
but anyway, maybe i'll blog about that on a future post. when everything clears up. :]
so yea, this part of my life. . Anime, Korean dramas and J-doramas.
i surrender to Daddy TODAY - July . 08 . 2009.
it already occured to me before that, these particular things have been hindrances. and i guess, to be honest. . i sort of dodged the fact that they were the one's keeping me from being consistent in my walk with the Lord. and if i recall correctly, it was last sunday. that i heard Daddy's voice VERY CLEARLY while i was praying.
He said, "stop watching witch yoohee. ." O_O HAHA, so i thought about it real hard. 'cause i was only in episode 12 that time, there were still 4 episodes left. and i'm actually the kind of person who finishes things i've already started. [most of the time. XD]
and if i don't, i get really agitated. so, i really thought it over. . and i came to the decision of just finishing the series ASAP. after that, surrender everything to Daddy. 'cause i thought, i'd be willing to stop it right now but then again, there would be this tendency of my mind wandering away with the thoughts of not finishing the series. therefore, i won't really be able to concentrate on the things i need to do 'cause my mind's gonna be all "gaaah~ i wanna finish watching the series. ." O_O being someone who wants things organized, my attention would always drift away when i feel uncomfortable with something.
yes, i think. . i didn't really obey Daddy's voice. but during this whole time, i did kind of had His peace with me. there wasn't really that feeling of disobeying Him. maybe what Daddy meant was "stop watching those dramas. ." XD or. . i don't know. T-T there's Grace? XD hihi~ but yes, i know very well NOT to take advantage of it. that's why i've RESOLVED.
i've been doing quite GOOD without listening to KPOP/JPOP music since the day i surrendered that part of my life to Daddy. tho, i can't really remember whan that was. XD anyway, i am aware that i'm already behind a lot in the world of Asian music fandom, but i'm still ALIVE. actually, listening to only Christian music. . i've never been more alive before. (n_n)v i admit, there would still be rare times when i would listen to a song or two [KPOP/JPOP]. . like new realeses and stuff.
but, i believe that it's just like a visiting. eventually, i go home to where i'm supposed to be. and now, next will be the drama-watching. Anime, K-dramas and J-doramas. . i think, i'll be pretty much fine without them for a while. most likely even for a long time. i mean, that's not my world. . that's really not what i'm supposed to be doing right now. and i really just wanna focus on Jesus. prioritize my walk with Him. put Him FIRST. through out the whole realization of my purpose. i noticed that i'm still being inconsistent with the things that truly matters. i was still wasting time. and that Daddy can't really prepare me if i'm not showing up for training. like, i was using the statement "it's ok to have a "life"." as an excuse. i cannot deny that. . things right now. . are messed up. probably 'cause i got to carefree. but i'm really glad that Daddy's still with me. especially when things fell apart all at the same time. truly He never left me.
He's been the one holding me together.
i still love Asian music and all of those stuff, but i LOVE my God MORE. . and right now, i just wanna chill with Him. search more of my purpose and who i truly am in Him. have that Heavenly Father and daughter bonding. and just wait on Him. . so He may renew my strength. for my strength is His joy. and i want my life to please Him and put a smile on His face.
i haven't quite done my responsibility as a Christian and as the King's daughter properly. so i write this blog as i do my best to push every hindrance aside and finally heed Daddy's call completely.
just like what i did with the Asian music fandom.
i believe that Daddy has been calling me to put those aside for a while and just spend some time with Him. i admit that, i am kind of missing doing those stuff [fangirling], but i know very well myself that now's NOT the time. i'm really thinking, TIME PLAN. i need to prioritize everything. i need to set what and who needs to be first in my life. i've mentioned in one of my past blogs that i once realized that i've been living quite an unorganized life. and lately i've been realizing it even more. specially now that i finally have my own copy of Choo Thomas' book "Heaven Is So Real!".
i finally got to buy it last saturday after ate Mimi's babyshower.
i am now in chapter 8.
what's the connection you ask. well, i'm not too sure myself.
but i can sense that this book really has something to do with me.
there's this deep kind of connection and i really feel quite attached to it.
and my dreams. . literal dreams, as in the ones you have when you sleep.
they kind of caught up with the story. 'cause i'm not too sure, since Daddy knows when. . but i keep having these strange dreams. well, they weren't really strange until i realized what they all have in common. before, i just thought that they were merely the kind of dreams you normally have.
but as i kept on having them like, every other night. the more i realized that they all have the same kind of occurence. only, each with a different kind of setting. and so, as i get to read more of the book the more i get that feeling of urgency. like there's really no time left to drag around.
everything's happening so fast.
and truly the 2nd coming of the King is just around the corner.
but anyway, maybe i'll blog about that on a future post. when everything clears up. :]
so yea, this part of my life. . Anime, Korean dramas and J-doramas.
i surrender to Daddy TODAY - July . 08 . 2009.
it already occured to me before that, these particular things have been hindrances. and i guess, to be honest. . i sort of dodged the fact that they were the one's keeping me from being consistent in my walk with the Lord. and if i recall correctly, it was last sunday. that i heard Daddy's voice VERY CLEARLY while i was praying.
He said, "stop watching witch yoohee. ." O_O HAHA, so i thought about it real hard. 'cause i was only in episode 12 that time, there were still 4 episodes left. and i'm actually the kind of person who finishes things i've already started. [most of the time. XD]
and if i don't, i get really agitated. so, i really thought it over. . and i came to the decision of just finishing the series ASAP. after that, surrender everything to Daddy. 'cause i thought, i'd be willing to stop it right now but then again, there would be this tendency of my mind wandering away with the thoughts of not finishing the series. therefore, i won't really be able to concentrate on the things i need to do 'cause my mind's gonna be all "gaaah~ i wanna finish watching the series. ." O_O being someone who wants things organized, my attention would always drift away when i feel uncomfortable with something.
yes, i think. . i didn't really obey Daddy's voice. but during this whole time, i did kind of had His peace with me. there wasn't really that feeling of disobeying Him. maybe what Daddy meant was "stop watching those dramas. ." XD or. . i don't know. T-T there's Grace? XD hihi~ but yes, i know very well NOT to take advantage of it. that's why i've RESOLVED.
i've been doing quite GOOD without listening to KPOP/JPOP music since the day i surrendered that part of my life to Daddy. tho, i can't really remember whan that was. XD anyway, i am aware that i'm already behind a lot in the world of Asian music fandom, but i'm still ALIVE. actually, listening to only Christian music. . i've never been more alive before. (n_n)v i admit, there would still be rare times when i would listen to a song or two [KPOP/JPOP]. . like new realeses and stuff.
but, i believe that it's just like a visiting. eventually, i go home to where i'm supposed to be. and now, next will be the drama-watching. Anime, K-dramas and J-doramas. . i think, i'll be pretty much fine without them for a while. most likely even for a long time. i mean, that's not my world. . that's really not what i'm supposed to be doing right now. and i really just wanna focus on Jesus. prioritize my walk with Him. put Him FIRST. through out the whole realization of my purpose. i noticed that i'm still being inconsistent with the things that truly matters. i was still wasting time. and that Daddy can't really prepare me if i'm not showing up for training. like, i was using the statement "it's ok to have a "life"." as an excuse. i cannot deny that. . things right now. . are messed up. probably 'cause i got to carefree. but i'm really glad that Daddy's still with me. especially when things fell apart all at the same time. truly He never left me.
He's been the one holding me together.
i still love Asian music and all of those stuff, but i LOVE my God MORE. . and right now, i just wanna chill with Him. search more of my purpose and who i truly am in Him. have that Heavenly Father and daughter bonding. and just wait on Him. . so He may renew my strength. for my strength is His joy. and i want my life to please Him and put a smile on His face.
i haven't quite done my responsibility as a Christian and as the King's daughter properly. so i write this blog as i do my best to push every hindrance aside and finally heed Daddy's call completely.
[EDITED]
- was supposed to write some more but i'm kind of baffled right now so~
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° GAAAH~~~~ T-T
° wanna buy a sketchbook and all of those stuff for Art.
° just wanna chill with my Daddy and read His Word along with His end time book at a nice coffee shop. -STARBUCKS!
° need to get busy. lot of "WORK" to do.
° O_O
